Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
- Unwritten, Natasha BedingfieldFirst post for the year!
How did I end 2008? So much drama! Ugh, I completely hate myself for finding the worst time to be all
teleserye - right smack at the strike of New Year's. I stayed in my room and was totally engrossed in this cheerleading show on ESPN, when it dawned on me that crap, 2009
na.
WHAT TO DO??!! So there I was, all of a sudden in a panic mode because I honestly had this big blank sheet in my head as I started thinking about the twelve months sprawled vastly ahead. Such a big year waiting, and I feel extremely
*tiny*. Suddenly, I didn't have the energy to party and be crazy and pig out like I was originally planning to; I got really
praning. Which is stupid now because it's not like there's anything I can do about it... about life.
Yan tuloy, the first ever time in my whole life that I wasn't able to celebrate New Year's with my family. I was in my room, unconsciously watching TV, immobile in bed while bombs disguised as firecrackers went off everywhere! Can you say
PARTY POOPER??And for that realizaton, I am officially ending my angsty, bitter, depressing, emo-filled holidays. I honestly really didn't get to enjoy it much, or at all. What a waste. I'll be, like, 76 when the next Christmas season comes again. Hmph. I can't believe this has been the crappiest Christmas for me. I guess I'm all to blame for feeling that way. I wasn't able to handle certain things well, and it consequently ruined my favorite time of year for me.
But I'm cutting myself some slack, too... this is the first time I've had to face something so big and serious in my life, so the first-timer's got no clue. Now that the vacation is almost up, so will my emo-ness. Eew, just saying that makes me cringe.
And now to my favorite part of New Year's, the part that I never take seriously. Resolutions! I can't remember the last time I made one, because I am so bad at keeping them. This time though, I'll be realistic and just make ones that I know I can do. Like:
a) Blog. Blog MORE. Seriously. I am looking at my blog this year, and i've only had what?
17 entries??! In the past 365 days, I was only able to come up with 17 measly posts. What has happened to my brain?! So here it is, I will blog about anything that comes to mind - people, favorite things, movies, books, songs, pictures... anything that takes my fancy. I have really missed writing, and since I've got a lot of free time in my hands now, there's no more excuse not to. :)
b) Drink water. I noticed that since my stint in Lion Land, I've been drinking less and less... water, that is. I used to down liters of water in a day!
Hmm....
I guess that's it. I can't think of other things that I will actually stick to and keep doing for the rest of the year, so I won't bother thinking of anything more.
Oh yeah. Lose weight. Because I look (and feel) like a
dugong right now. See Exhibit A:

I'm not even facing the camera, but you can tell there's a platter of a face on her. Look at that cheek! I want to slice it off!
The only upside about gaining a few pounds is, maybe my boobies will get bigger, too! Yey!